IRRECONCILABLE

being irreconcilable is a privilege of those who are afraid,
who tremble alone tormented by nightmares,
which are cramped and stuffy, which are mad.
but who, when it's necessary, are steadfast.

I know the hideous truth about myself.
I am irreconcilable with it even in minutes of black despair.

the decision was to stay as persistent as firmest titan
and I live because at my grotesque fair
I keep fighting.